Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Listening to Starling by Muse
Im not sure why Im blogging, I have nothing to say, I wanna blog about my 2 weeks run away but its too long, Im too lazy and I dont want alot of people to know about it.
Just a
warning this blog is completely rubbish and a waste of time, and its gonna be really random, so dont read it, unless you really want to.
So why is it that people copy other people? is it the craving of being accepted? wanting to be like that person maybe? or maybe just to piss that person off? and what drives us sane? keep us going in life, its the little things that annoyes and makes us angry and yet at the same time its those little things that makes us happy.
Why is it that students want to be accepted in that group? when we know what they are like, is it because then you know that you have another group talking about you?
And rumors. Its just stories people make up because they are jealous and is not satisfied with their own life, well why dont they do something about it instead of starting rumors, to ruin someones reputation.
Chocolates why are they so tasty? i mean that thing screams out fat! hehehe
wooosshhh cucumber man!! idaho? youdaho!! 'wakakakaka' hehe
And boys!! why do they have to be so darn complicated! I mean jeeze and they say girls are complicated!
okays Im gonna go 'cause this is such a waste of time hehe.
till next time ( where I actually blog properly)
xoxo
ciaos
L o V i N g Y o U
6:37 AM
Sunday, February 25, 2007
I'd do anything to just feel better.
xoxo
ciao
L o V i N g Y o U
4:36 AM
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Listening to Come As You Are by Nirvana
Okay, so my week has been messed up!! I am still sick, and can get worse (JUST GREAT!!) so on tuesday after maths I went to nurse 'cause I felt dizzy, so the nurse gave me some pills to take and asked me to rest, which I did without any hessitation. Then she called my uncle to pick me up from school, 'cause I was just
TOOOOOO sick, so the nurse sent me home because of the
lack of sleep, not eating properly, streesed out, and because of my cough and flu, so I went home. later that day I
went to the doctors and he said the same thing, and gave me alot of
pills and syrup to take. Both said that I need alot of rest and to start eating properly, the doctor also said that
I could get worse and actually get admitted into hospital for exhaustion and lack of food, so ofcourse I
paniced and I am gonna try my very best to change my diet.
Today however, since morning I had a
constant headache and
wanted to throw up alot and
everytime I moved everything moved in slow motion and
my head became heavy for me to carry (kinda like when you get high when your drunk, but ofcourse I wouldnt know that he-he) ANYWAYS yeah so I felt really sick, so
I went to see the doctor again and to my luck guess what????!!!! I have
low blood pressure,
as if my health isnt bad enough, so yeah I really have to change, the doctor was like if I dont take care now, the next time I could get admitted into the hospital etc etc I dont wanna risk it, so Im not gonna go to school tomorrow, 'cause I really have to get alot of rest.
But it was so sweet,
Naz texted me when I was in the clinic and
my cousin had my mobile so
he was like "
cynthia is with the doctor, she is really sick, she might have to go to the hospital and stay there for awhile" stuff like that and
Naz paniced and
called straight away and was like "
are you okay? do you have to go to the hospital? do you need anything?" stuff like that
sooooo sweeeeet man >.< hehe. and
few mins ago he just texted going "
darling, hope you get better soon, dont forget to take your med's and sleep early, like now, not around 12am or later i dont think you should go to school tomorrow, just rest and take it easy ya' cant wait to see you again, miss you soo much, hugs and kisses 4 u...muuuaaaahhhssss" AHHHH I know
im acting like a child, but its
really sweeeeet hehe. okays im gonna go now all the pills and syrup are making me sleepy (
I feel like such a druggie man) take cares guys, nighty nights/morning hehe.
till next time ya?
xoxo
ciao
L o V i N g Y o U
7:48 AM
Monday, February 12, 2007
Listening to Jakatta by Jakatta
*sigh* I feel
SICK!!!=( I stiil got my flu (from last week) I got cough from
Naz and starting to get fever, and worst of all
MY VOICE IS GOING!!! urge, my weekend wasnt bad hehe, it was great actually, uhm, not gonna talk about it cause Im too lazy, but I will talk about my trip back because it is decent and funny if you were there kinda thing hehe, okay so I got into the ferry like 5 mins before it was about to leave and it was
PACKED so but lucky I saw
Jackie (she's from JIS, Year 12) and she had a 2 seater seat, so I sat next to her and we were talking and filling in our forms when
Magerate and her little sister came and there werent any seats left so they were outside, ( both of them are from JIS as well,
Mags is in year 10 and her sis in year 7) anyways, after filling in our forms we went outside to join the two sisters,
Mags and her sis, are eurasian, dusun&british, who are malaysians, and can speak malay and chinese way better then me, anyways
Jackie ( she is a crazy chiqa man same with
Mags, their effing awesome, and
Mags looks
SO DAMN MUCH like
Mary) bought some
alcohol so we were just chillin&drinking but it got
boiling HOT so the 4 of us went inside, and HAHA see, since there werent any seats left for
Mags&her sis, so
the 4 of us were squashed in the 2 seater seat laughing our ass off and it was so hot as well and 'cause we were so loud the guy and lady in front who was trying to sleep, couldnt and kept giving us bitchy face expressions hehe it was cause we were tipsy hahaha ( but
Mags's little sis wasnt, underage drinking man ahahaha) anyways, uhm and when we were getting out,
MAN the malay ladies are so rough they just push you and dont really care, we were like the first few to stand up and wait and was the last ones to get off the ferry, sotong man, sheese. uhm okays, me gonna go.
till next time.
xoxo
ciao
L o V i N g Y o U
5:16 AM
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Listening to Work by Jimmy Eat World
Feeling, sick, scared, annoyed, and happy (haha)
Bleh, so far my week hasnt been that bad, yesterday was the best we did
JACK SHIT!!
Hamish told us a few ghost stories which got us
jumping off our seats and screaming in malay ahaha it was funny man, you could see
Bianca,
Chris,
See Keyong and I like jump backwards and scream ahaha and the teacher just goes "
Hamish stop scaring the girls" hahaha. Uhm, urge!! Its freekin Thursday and guess what? I have to get sick,
why? why? WHY?!?! I refuse to get sick, I will not allow that to happen, not during my weekend!! I REFUSE TO GIVE IN AND GET SICK, refuse I tell ya' REFUSE!!! *snezze* uh, and uhm, oh Valentines next week, hurray? Im just gonna make this a short blog 'cause I have to study for History, yet again. Woopii going to
Philippines next month for a week, cant wait to
SHOP till I drop hehe, I'll get a few people something, depends how much you mean to me hehe. yeah I guess thats it for now hay,
till next time, normally I would put something vain here, but I got nothing today hehe.
NYAN IS COMING BACK!!! YAY!!!
xoxo
ciao
L o V i N g Y o U
6:01 AM
Monday, February 05, 2007
Listening to The World Looking In by Morcheeba
Feeling, Happy?
( Just so you know, this post ish gonna be belly belly random)
Okays, so the weekend wasnt bad, it was kinda fun, not fun as in getting drunk, kinda thing, it was a nice chillaxin fun weekend, for once hehe. uhm, school wasnt so bad today, we did jack shit, Im so happy I got 100% for my ICT, perfect scores man, haha and uhm, Tet Wee and I changed identity, I call him Cynthia and he calls me Tet Wee haha, it feels so weird man, hahahaha. We spent most of ICT gossipin, yesh I was gossipin with the guys instead of the girls hehe. Im suppose to be revising for History tomorrow, I shall do it soon.
Urge!!! I can hear my self goiin "dont fall for him Cyn" buuuut its so hard, I cant help it, I've been keeping my self busy so I dont have to think of him, but ARGE!! so hard man. I might be going to over this weekend so uhm, we gonna have an early valentines hehe, that should be belly belly interesting, and of course the first to know all of this is the one and only Dian J. Saxon hehe and Dinesh you guys should be honoured man hahahaha. Uhm, yeah man, so cant help my self. Oh its that time again where, people ask me to give them roses, its kinda lame if you really think about it, but its okay, thats what valentines are all about riight, giving flowers/chocolates/presents to the people you care most. Even though I dont celebrate valentines, its still nice of me to give people stuff I guess hehe *ahemNICKahemISAahemDIANahem& many more* and you know everyone else that I care most, but I must say that not everyone will get something from me this year, not that Im bein mean or anything.
AHH!!! cant wait to go to Labuan man, Brunei drives me insane sometimes, theres absolutly NOTHING to do here. Uhm, okays I have nothing pointless to add to the blog so Im gonna go "study" for History.
Till next time, or maybe next week, where I blog about my weekend, and I know people like to read about my weekend and start gossipping *chuckels*
xoxo
ciao
"I can hear my self saying Dont fall for him Cyn, but its so harrd." Flowers says Im sorry, Candy/Chocolates says I Love you.Remember: Beer and Grass your on your ass. Grass and Beer your in the clear.
L o V i N g Y o U
6:54 AM
Friday, February 02, 2007
Listening to Digital Love by Daft punk.
Feeling....realistic not EMO (people always think just 'cause your expressing how you feel, your being EMO, EMO is dislike your life and wanting to end it not expressing how you feel in a formal matter)
Uhm, what can I say, its a Friday night, Im at home, cant figure out what to say/reply in Naz's email, have been drinking alot of green tea, and feeling oh so FAT!!! So me ish goiin to the gym tomorrow with Chris. School hasn't been bad, I mean no more girl drama so thats good, buut Im starting to realize how important my studies and exams are, we had the "your future" talk with Mrs.Sanderson, and it hit me so hard on my face, on how much I have to study/revise for this exam, 'cause without this results I go no where, not even IB, Mrs.Sanderson said that to get into IB we need to fill in the forms, on what subjects we want then, Her, Mr.Powell and Mr.Canterford will look at our results and decide which letter we get, the thing is its not about getting to IB, but getting into UNI, if I dont get good grades for my I/GCSE then I dont get into UNI or IB, which means I have to go to some collage, what if that doesnt work out, what if I become a bum, living off my parents money, like those "people" what then? Am I allowed to make my own decision about what Im gonna do for the rest of my life? what if that doesnt work out? I dont even know what I want to be, while everyone else does, should I be making these decisions at 16 which will affect me in 5-10 years time, or possibly sooner. All these questions keep poping up and Im like "shit". sometimes I wish I could see my future, just to know that I will be ok. The pressure of doing well in my life has just sunk in, from 3 parents who I dont even see, so how do I know if im making the right desicions? People think its so easy, and fun I mean no parents, I can do whatever I want, well, I guess it is somehow, cause its not like they've been there all the time when I was young anyway, maybe thats why Im like this, all the guys, drinking, smoking, clubbing, shopping so much, maybe this is my cry to them. Yeah sure, Im a teenager Im supposed to try drinking and smoking, but where is the limit of trying and not, I drink like every weekend. And it not that I mind, but to find out that Im a big disapointment to my uncle and aunt and how they blame me for being a bad influence to my cousin Charlotte and Iris, just pisses me off, yeah I know, Im not perfect but to blame me for their childrens doings cause they are too daft, blind and ignorant to see what their children wants and needs is just fucking stupid, they dont know what their girls do behind their backs but do they care? no the only solution is "Cynthia is influencing them, so lets not tell them off cause they dont have a mind of their own to think, lets blame it all on Cynthia" how big of them.
It feels like Im walking on ice here, anyways Im gonna ciao for now, the meds are kicking in hehe.
xoxo
ciao
"Dont for once think my life is perfect and easy, just 'cause I get what I want"
L o V i N g Y o U
6:03 AM
Listening to Digital Love by Daft punk.
Feeling....realistic not EMO (people always think just 'cause your expressing how you feel, your being EMO, EMO is dislike your life and wanting to end it not expressing how you feel in a formal matter)
Uhm, what can I say, its a Friday night, Im at home, cant figure out what to say/reply in Naz's email, have been drinking alot of green tea, and feeling oh so FAT!!! So me ish goiin to the gym tomorrow with Chris. School hasn't been bad, I mean no more girl drama so thats good, buut Im starting to realize how important my studies and exams are, we had the "your future" talk with Mrs.Sanderson, and it hit me so hard on my face, on how much I have to study/revise for this exam, 'cause without this results I go no where, not even IB, Mrs.Sanderson said that to get into IB we need to fill in the forms, on what subjects we want then, Her, Mr.Powell and Mr.Canterford will look at our results and decide which letter we get, the thing is its not about getting to IB, but getting into UNI, if I dont get good grades for my I/GCSE then I dont get into UNI or IB, which means I have to go to some collage, what if that doesnt work out, what if I become a bum, living off my parents money, like those "people" what then? Am I allowed to make my own decision about what Im gonna do for the rest of my life? what if that doesnt work out? I dont even know what I want to be, while everyone else does, should I be making these decisions at 16 which will affect me in 5-10 years time, or possibly sooner. All these questions keep poping up and Im like "shit". sometimes I wish I could see my future, just to know that I will be ok. The pressure of doing well in my life has just sunk in, from 3 parents who I dont even see, so how do I know if im making the right desicions? People think its so easy, and fun I mean no parents, I can do whatever I want, well, I guess it is somehow, cause its not like they've been there all the time when I was young anyway, maybe thats why Im like this, all the guys, drinking, smoking, clubbing, shopping so much, maybe this is my cry to them. Yeah sure, Im a teenager Im supposed to try drinking and smoking, but where is the limit of trying and not, I drink like every weekend. And it not that I mind, but to find out that Im a big disapointment to my uncle and aunt and how they blame me for being a bad influence to my cousin Charlotte and Iris, just pisses me off, yeah I know, Im not perfect but to blame me for their childrens doings cause they are too daft, blind and ignorant to see what their children wants and needs is just fucking stupid, they dont know what their girls do behind their backs but do they care? no the only solution is "Cynthia is influencing them, so lets not tell them off cause they dont have a mind of their own to think, lets blame it all on Cynthia" how big of them.
It feels like Im walking on ice here, anyways Im gonna ciao for now, the meds are kicking in hehe.
xoxo
ciao
"Dont for once think my life is perfect and easy, just 'cause I get what I want"
L o V i N g Y o U
6:03 AM
