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Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Listening to My heart.
Feeling, I dont know ask me in a few weeks time nd I'll let you know.
School was fine today, WAS having a great day. Stayed back and watched the Battle of the Bands auditions...saw/heard Mota, We arent all girls (I think thats the band name), Arif's band and some younger grade band(not sure what they are called) had two ice-creams and became hyper haha as per usual hehe.
Maybe some things are just never meant to be..you know what I mean, cause everything that had loved me or love me or anything like that, has always gone away. And your just like "how can someone so close to me let this happen" kinda thing ( i know i am being EMO, well fuck you i dont give a crap).
We were so happy yesterday, you sent me the sweetest testimonial, funny, today was so unexpected.
Maybe they were all right, it was just not meant to be, but how do they know, when they dont know how i feel. hearing you say sorry for something that you were forced to do...well it makes me so damn effing sad. you treat me like nothing happend, but theres just a few things that i cant say, and you cant say anymore.....iono maybe im right..im just not cut-out for this.
Im gonna leave it as that cause i just dont wanna write anymore.
xoxo
ciao
Just as friends
"These tears wont stop coming down my face"
L o V i N g Y o U
4:29 AM
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Listening to Superhero by Jane's AddictionFeeling everythingWhy is it that when something happens..the girl is always the one that HAS to say sorry? Well im not gonna cause in stubborn like that hehe.Well my weekend wash really laid back for once hehe, on Friday we all went to watch West Side Story...it was good....Julie is a really good singer. Then I got home....started chatting then went to sleep round 12am.On saturday I woke up round 11, watched TV, then the power went off so my cousin Aaron, Jay and I were stuck in the master bed room cause for some strange reason there was power in that room..lucky for me my driver picked me up and I went to Dians. While at Dians, she helped me with my history work, we ate ice-cream and as usual we talked about everything hehe, I left Dians at around 10:30pm close to 11pm, when I got home....came online and 3 guys who I dont know added me...one of them was in Pakistan...verrry weird..so anyways i came online started chatting and only went off around 2:50am close to 3am hehe.I woke up at 12pm today..had a shower etc etc..had some pasta as my breakfast, lunch and dinner, watched tv, came online and has been since hehe. oh and I finished my history hehe.Chatted to Zee today...it was good...I feel kinda bad cause I took all my anger out on him hehe, every lil comment he made I made it a big deal hehe, but oh well hehe.Life has been better for me....well its not as bad as when before..yeah I still have problems but Im taking it day by day, ya know what I mean mate. hehe. I cant wait till be holidays start....and Im kinda looking forwards to leaving this place as well, just staring a new life, making new friends, its gonna be hard but Im sure I can manage. I dont want to leave my friends here...but I gots to move on (sounds so dramatic and depressings haha) but yeah I cant wait.Anyways thats it for now. Till next time. Take caresDAMN I MISS AMELIA!!!:pxoxo ciaoThe greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.
-Nelson Mandela-
L o V i N g Y o U
7:45 AM
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
The Many Wonderous Ways to Say 'I Love You'~
(ENGLISH) I LOVE YOU
(POLISH) JA KOCHAM CIEBIE
(FRENCH) JE T'AIME
(HINDI) HUM TUMHE PYAR KARTE HAE
(CZECH) MILUJI TE
(SLOVAKIAN) LU'BIM TA
(ITALIAN) TI AMO
(UKRAINIAN) YA TEBE KAHAYU
(GERMAN) ISH LIBE DISH
(CHINESE) WO AI NI
(GREEK) S'AGAPO
(HAWAIAN) ALOHA WAU IA OI
(LITHUIANIAN) TAV MYLIU
(KOREAN) SA RANG HAE YO
(JAPANESE) AI SHI TE RU
(ROMANIAN) TE UBSEC
(BOSNIAN) VOLIM TE
(ALBANIAN) TE DUA
(FILIPINO) MAHAL KITA
(SPANISH) TE AMO
(PORTUGESE) AMO TE
(ARABIAN) ANNAH BE HEBIC
L o V i N g Y o U
6:12 AM
Monday, November 20, 2006
Listening to the song Razie gave me
Feeling sad, happy & loving, loved
Okays so my weekend was so damn fun besides the sunburn of course hehe, on Friday after my nerve wrecking Malay orals...it went so damn bad I froze at some points cause I didn’t know the Malay words so I said it in English omg man. Anyways after that I left to Labuan. And just as I arrived I had to go for an open house by the beach, it wasn’t really the house they kinda like rented this open place by the beach and yeah...the food was awesome they had everything there…western, Malay, Chinese, Indian and they had satays and those honey chicken which they BBQ in those Malay stalls it was LUSH!! Haha then it started to rain and everyone started panicking haha it wash so funny, anyways later that night I just went for a drive with Razie around Labuan, and when I got back I went to sleep. On Saturday I had to wake up at 6:30!! To get ready to go to the Island. We went to Pulau Papan it was great, we left the jetty at around 7:30 and it took us 30 mins to get to the island. When we got there the island was totally ours omg it was great!! My cousin Cindy and I straight away swam it was so nice cause it was so hot and the water was just right…but poor Cindy she was teaching a friend how to dive and scraped he upper lip between her nose and it started bleeding and she hit her nose as well, on a rock/coral, poor her luckily one of her friend brought a first aid kit hehe. After that incident Cindy and I practically spent the whole day walking around the beach, lying down listening to music and falling asleep or eating hehehe. Man we had so much food, it was unbelievable. We left the Island at around 4pm and while going back I got so wet it was like I swam back instead…oh I got so annoyed hehe. When we got back there were this guys staring at Cindy and I and taking pictures of us and there were like 10 of them so we called Rudy, Cindy’s bf and then they left so it was all cool. When we got home I was sooooooooo SO burnt omg it was unbelievable. So we had a shower and went to the hair saloon. When we got back home we ate and wanted to sleep for half and hour cause we were going out clubbin that night which never happened cause I woke up this morning and was like shit we were suppose to go out hahaha…so like Cindy and I went to sleep around 8pm on sat and woke up at 8am hahaha and like I was wearing my jeans and everything hahaha and while sleeping I could feel heat off my sunburn and Cindy’s sunburn omg it was sooo hot hehe. Then on Sunday Cindy and I watched Entourage, then was joined by another cousin of mine Charlotte and we watched Entourage till 11, where we got ready and went out where I got even more burnt haha… then went to get my ticket back, when home got ready and went to the ferry terminal, where it was PACKED with Bruneians. And omg it was so scary cause when I was on my way back here I fell asleep cause it was bumpy and when I woke up it was so DARK and all I could see was lightning OMG it was scary, and normally we would reach Brunei at 5:30 but today I reached at 6-ish.
Well that’s it folks, till next time, I know you guys cant wait to hear my exciting, wild and wonderful stories hehe.
Xoxo
Ciao
L o V i N g Y o U
12:01 AM
Monday, November 06, 2006
Listening to the outside worldFeeling confused, in love, confused about love, happy, i really dont knowtoday was fine im gonna skip all that yeah today at school blah blah blah because im in a crisis HELP! okays im kinda-ish,maybe, not so sure-probably not in relationship with this dude and then another dude came along and we got to know each other really really well and now im having feelings for him as well and he likes me a lot, the weird thing is that he's my cousins friend and has been since he was 16 yes he is around 18, 19, 20 not sure, he would not stop telling me how much he needs me and stuff like that. my question is, is it possible to like both guys...i mean i like the first dude a lot and i also like the 2nd dude a lot so WHAT do i do? the 2nd dude asked me out and i said i would sleep over it and let him know, but what should i really do, i dont want to lose the 1st guy.....and i dont want to lose the 2nd guy either....im so confused i feel like crying. LOVE IS OVER RATED!!
please help me
xoxo
ciao
till next time
L o V i N g Y o U
7:37 AM
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Listening to some song by kelly clarkson, eating blueberry cheese cake, feeling sick got a migraine. So how is everyone? hehe man i havent updated my blog for ages. School was okay today i was a bit sick at school so i wasnt in the mood to do anything, poor dian she has to put up with it, (thankish dian) moving on, we only had 7 people in class today omg man hehe.I chatted to Nyan today, hehe he asked me to visit him when im there, cause he ish gonna be all alone for x'mas, poor him, hehehe. Im like so not in the mood to do anything, its amazing hehehe.Part of me feel like its my fault, with what is happening to me now, but part of me just doesnt care. Coming home isnt as fun as it used to be as well, i miss being in kindy, where you'd look forward till home time cause you know your rents are waiting for you all happy and shit, with a treat for you, something like that ya know..i really miss that hehe. school and friends are different now. Feelings comes and Goes??
I have the urge to just run, run until i get so tired i cant move anymore, that what i want to do, take away everything.
Me going to K.K next thursday after school yay, hehe. hokay i really dont know what to right anymore so yeah till next time.
xoxo
ciao
L o V i N g Y o U
3:37 AM
(About Me)
okay, this is dee love. otherwise known as hugwhore number one, part of the dynamic duo that is cynthia and i.<
so, you should all at least know of this girl if you're reading this blog, but that doesn't mean you know
what she's like or who she truly is, so here i am, serving you the summary on a silver platter.
she's a butt kicking, ice cream licking, -- wait, let's just stop these futile attempts at summing up wondergirl.
currently she is 16, living in brunei and going through the life of an isbian (with yours truly - isb, represent,
baby), highs + lows and all.
coming from the lands of malaysia, india, portugal and china and blessing this world with the glory that is her
on september the 9th, she's into the punk rock scene with a twist
of some other fxcked up beats and loves the girly girl stuff, yet at the same time, is always willing to get down
and dirrty. she migrates to labuan every weekend or so and is a notorious relationship hopper (but working on
changing that - she has the best intentions at heart) and
she's always up for a good night out, especially when we were going through that drunken'ho phase together.
that's another thing, we've been through so much shit together and cliche as it sounds, life wouldn't be as fun
or interesting if she weren't in it. even though she's a party wild child, hair a-flickin' and boots a-kickin', she
does have her sensitive side and can be extremely wicked too. anyway, there's no actual way to describe cyn and
it's a crime to even try and attempt to, so it'd be best to get to know her yourself or else you'd be missing out
on so much
