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Friday, June 30, 2006
Im listening to the chicks singing on MTV making the band, not that bad actully hee.
Feeling happy, sad, hyper, blah de blah de blah hehehe.
Ok just a short update on what has been happening.
OK so we had our sports day on wednesday, that was a good day, I did get pissed off for awhile though cuz I came second in swiming and I was out cuz I touched the end with one hand instead or two stupid ay. Then i got told of by mrs.fat cow mrs.sanderson cuz I wore shorts and a tank top after swiming while waitting for by driver to come, can I ask WHATTHEHELL is wrong with that, there were chicks wearing short mini skirts and she didnt tell them off, mr.canterford came and talked to me and he didnt tell me off. stupid bitch moving onnn nothing special happend on thursday I went to church class and they were talking abt teen drinking hahahaha that was so funny. And then friday came which is today:P ok so today is the last day of school and the last day of us being in yr 10, man I cant believe we'r gonna be in yr 11 next year, and this time next year I will be leaving damn man!! im so scared. and as usual there were heaps of people crying,leaving, taking pictures etc etc.. gonna miss the people that are leaving, and yeah there were was all the hugging, course I hugged heaps of people as well and dian and I said good by to our lockers..its soo sad *forces self to fake cry* hehe and yeah. Then after the hugging I had to go to moms place had lunch [huge ass lasagna] it was fandatastic!! hee. Then I took off to go to Kuala Lurah with my moms worker andrew and sean thay are fucking awesome hahaha. We were speeding blasting the music out loud so fucking awesome and oh gosh just the stuff they did was fucking hillarious hahahaha. Then I came home fell asleep, watched tv and yeah same ole same old. hee. Oh yeah I forgot the lovely,wonderful,uber cool,fantastic mary is coming on thr 6th of july I hope I wont be here when she does hahahaha she's so fucking perfect!!Ok so that was just a short summery of what has happened. ....>>>> HAPPY 16 BUTTDAY YU FOONG<<<<....Hope you have a WONDERfuckingFUL 16 and sowies I couldnt make it but I will for the next do not fret :D love yaz.thats it for now.xoxo_ciao_
L o V i N g Y o U
8:20 AM
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
L o V i N g Y o U
4:11 AM
Monday, June 26, 2006
Im listening to some emo love song playing on my ipod and I cant be stuffed to change it *so far cant reach* anyways feeling emotionless, not that im emo I just iono feel like theres nothing to look forward too,no where special to go, no one special to see, no one special to hang out with no point in going to school that kinda thing you know.School wasnt bad today it was actully pretty good we did nothing and I mean nothing!! so yeah. thats basically it for school. Oh rents are back. they came back today morning and yeah.Today has been so dull and everyone ish so down i guess it kinda goes well with the weather cuz it has been raining the whole freaking day oh wells.Iam currently doing my english but it just doesnt seem to be finishing stupid ass work. and my printer doesnt work so im gonna have to print it at school which i know i wont cuz i'l probably forget about it and yeah you know how it goes.Oh and yesterday at sunday splash a kid died, scary dude, apperently he was unconscience and he drowned cuz he was under the bouncer and no one saw him freaky ass man, to think that a place brings so much joy can bring death. hmmm this is like the 2nd kid that died there ssscccaarryyy!"You treat me like I'm your Girlfriend and thats Not what I want"I was so close to telling him that when we were chatting but I dunno why I didnt, Why did I hold back and didnt tell him I dont know. Its complicated and he had to talk to me about how he didnt wanna go out with this chick cuz of well...me. Why? I mean im not that great. Well I am but you know what I mean hehe. Guys they are so complicated and they say we are stupid assess. I want it to end but then again I dont, I want him here but then again I dont cuz I know he's here....im not gonna say but yeah. GAH. gdhsfgfyghgasktyfatytsafkhfsaytfhsadftashgsftfkhdsFUCKTHIS. "But I really love you, I do"Why do they do that oh gawd it pisses me off. yyfygitfaihflisdafuysdfndsPISSMEFUCKINGOFF but yeah I mean shhhheeeesssshhh I dont even know what to say. Its weird and hard and complicated and sad but why do I feel happy and loved and free and and like my problems are far far away when im chatting or smsing or talking to him on the phone. It pisses me off how its like that. anyways im gonna sign off.xoxo_ciao_ "I will always love you" Think about that.
L o V i N g Y o U
7:33 AM
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Theres a DIFFERENCE between talking EMO and saying DEEP STUFF!
Im listening to the phone ring, should i answer it? nah i'll leave it should I join in with the gossip and the problems that they have and have to tell me, just not now i think. Feeling like I really wanna get out of here, it's not that i hate this place but i dunno maybe cuz im so used to walking or moving away when everything goes wrong and thats what I wanna do now.
Yesterday wasnt bad it was good actully i bought TONS of movies orderd pizza sat infront of the telly watched the movies i got and just stuffed my self with food oh it was great, after like months not having junk food i got a tummy ache but it was so fucking worth it hee. Anyways rents arent coming back today, they are coming back tommorow YES i mean ohhh hehehe but yeah they arent here till tommorow. I cant wait till the HOLIDAYS man im like so excited oh man i wish it was tommorow, just knowing that im gonna leave brunei gets me so excited hahahaha *no offence to this place/anyone or anything but yeah* holidays here i come!! hahaha
moving onnnn chris is back wooptefuckingdodaday i am so happy i mean *sigh* at least its just one more week which i am gonna be missing for some of it hehehe hamish is back from scotland today, he asked me to go to scotland with him in december and i wanna go just to shop and see that HOT guy hehehehe and bully hamish of course hehehe he's aunt has a cat named charlie hahahahahahaha.
I might be missing yu foongs party but i think its safe to say its ok there always parties to go to hehe. Anyways I WANNA DRIVEEEEEE!!!!!! sorry that was so fucking random hahahahahaha i just felt like saying that hee. Ermz what else what else....okays i have nothing i wanna say/type some deep stuff but i wont cuz people will go this chick is so emo.
Theres alot of questions that i wanna ask and want answers for but i have no idea how to say it GAH.
Gtg.
xoxo_
ciao_
L o V i N g Y o U
3:15 AM
Friday, June 23, 2006
Im listening to the sound of people talking downstairs, the tv and bikes passing by fast. Feeling like crap im foooking ssssiiiccckkk. Gots the fever, sore throat, sneez's,cough's and headache *snif snif*
So yesterday was the award thingy i got an award for PE which is weird but yeah dian got an award for ART hehehe we are just SOOO smart hehe. After that dian and I went to the airport to see ezy off and there we met up with beb and azim we all said our goodbyes to him, which is sad another friend left. As you know yesterday morning was the soccer match Brazil vs Japan, Japan scored the first goal but of course Brazil won it was 4-1.
Then i was forced to go to jp with my cousins. *sigh* I fink thats it for now toooooo ssshhhiiicccckkk to type ne'thing ehehe.
Byeees ya'll
Xoxo_
Ciao_
L o V i N g Y o U
9:08 PM
Thursday, June 22, 2006
Im listening to the sound of raindrops dropping hard and fast towards the ground its so awesome. Feeling pain cuz of my hand/arm hehehehe. So today wasnt that bad we had pe and greg threw the soft ball right to my hand oh my fuuytgsdjfhtyisdhgosh it hurts so much. heheheh ermz i am currently home alone hahahaha its awesome blasting the muuusick out loud hehehe. Oh tommorow is the awards thingy i dun really wanna go for it but i kinda have too damnit! hehe. I fink im gonna like stop sneaking out now iono hahahhaha im just going with the flow these days. Im still under house arrest its day seven hehe. Oh brazil is playing today/tommorow morning at 3am against japan wonder who will win hahaha.Yesterday we had our ict exam man i already know i made a mistake ssshhhheeeesssshhh man. I read david's song its so cool hehehe. Adam i am so gonna get your shoes you just wait the war is on hahahahaaha.Anyways gonna sign off hehe.P.S. coccollin [i fink thats how you spell he's name] is SO damn HOT he looks like heath ledger from 10 things i hate about you. OMG so HOT!!!!xoxo_ciao_
L o V i N g Y o U
3:46 AM
Monday, June 19, 2006
Im listening to the noise coming from the tv, the ac and the cars passing by outside real fast, how I wish I was in one of them right now. To go so fast that you dont care whats happening feeling the rush, the freedom and the wind just blowing through you hair and your just thinking how fucking awesome is this or im fucking free you cant do anything to stop me now. "Living life on the fast lane" as they say, but yeah I wanna do that so badly.Today wasnt bad just a normal day, school come home sleep shower watch tv chat hehehehe. Oh ezy came by after school though to give dian her handbag.I finally told someone about me, the real me, and I am so glad, I feel better but theres still things I have to do. I wanna start over, my whole life start everything, to forgive and forget about everything that has happened. And im glad im gonna. That means leaving some people behind and bringing some people with me but i dont think i would be leaving that much people behind.Anyways there's so many people leaving, and brunei is getting to me, I love everyone here and all i just wanna leave so damn bad. If I stay I will be at Jis. So I have to decide if I wanna stay or go and I really wanna go.Iono man.Day four of my house arrest going well actully, parents wont be here on thursday,friday, saturday and maybe sunday. They are going to KK on wednesday hehehe.Anyways im gonna sign off.Nites,xoxo_ciao_
L o V i N g Y o U
7:18 AM
Friday, June 16, 2006
Listening to the quite outside and behind blue eyes by limpbizkit feeling like i dunno how i feel emotionless i guess. Amelia's party last night was fucking awesome. got so wasted as usual. dian slept over at mine then we ninjad and yeah just read dians blog for more info abt the party. We got back round 3:30-4am then went to bed. We then woke up for school and my mom came upstairs she wanted to talk to me. and you know it she found out we sneak out. im in so much shit right now. Im under house arrest till i have no idea when. and yeah. Im not gonna blog abt what i did and stuff cuz i just dont feel like it, but i am gonna blog abt how i feel and it may be abit emo.Last night is the last time i'm gonna ninja i think. Im already in so much shit and my reports are so bad. I just feel like giving up. iono. anyway i dont wanna say too much. Im gonna go jump off a building or something hahahaha joking i would never do that.Nites people love yaz.xoxo_ciao
L o V i N g Y o U
7:14 AM
Sunday, June 11, 2006
Im listening to the sound of water being rushed, and yet it sounds so calm and relaxing. Thinking of what had happened back then, and how weird it was that we both thought about the same thing, about what happend to us. How it could have been so much more. The feeling of being rushed, complete, confuse and happy at the same time. Because you gave me advice like no other.Well this weekend has been fun, On friday dian and amelia came over to swim/sunbath and bake elle a birthday cake,which we did but it got burned and when we tried to fix it, it became worse so we ended up just leaving it at my place hahaha. We went to elle's party hahaha when we reached we got the address wrong so we ended up at some one's house muhamad i fink he's name was, but luckily he knew lane and elle or else we'd be so damn fucked. The party was fun. Towards the end I got so drunk, I mixed and drank so fast that i got so drunk so fast it was not funny. I got sick and yeah.Then on saturday dian, amelia and I were meant to go to labuan but we didnt cuz we over slept and miss the ferry twice. After elle's we were meant to meet up with them again cuz I couldnt sleep over but I was so gone i passed out. Dian slept over amelia's. So when we missed our ferry amelia came with dian,picked me up and we went for lunch at the Kota Batu yatch club, where we talked and ate, me having a bad hang over didnt eat much, and i started to panic and still is cuz i lost my wallet, some one stole it, ironicly it wasnt just by wallet that was missing lane's wallet was missing too. So I'm like so dead, I havent told my parents yet and don't know how to, I'm like so scared. So after lunch we went to Gadong. It was so quite, no one was there practically, we just hung out for awhile and then went home with amelia, dian and I slept over amelia's, there we started drinking at round 10-ish I think. Amelia invited a few guys over aswell, ezy, beb and azim. We were just at amelia's drinking dancing and stuff. Then woke up today at round 1 i fink by dian, went to the yatch club for lunch round 3, amelia had to leave early to pick up her sister beulah so dian and I waited but my mom picked us up.Then mom had a bbq at our's with a few ppl, and that was it basically. Anyways I gtgxoxo_ciao_
L o V i N g Y o U
8:51 AM
(About Me)
okay, this is dee love. otherwise known as hugwhore number one, part of the dynamic duo that is cynthia and i.<
so, you should all at least know of this girl if you're reading this blog, but that doesn't mean you know
what she's like or who she truly is, so here i am, serving you the summary on a silver platter.
she's a butt kicking, ice cream licking, -- wait, let's just stop these futile attempts at summing up wondergirl.
currently she is 16, living in brunei and going through the life of an isbian (with yours truly - isb, represent,
baby), highs + lows and all.
coming from the lands of malaysia, india, portugal and china and blessing this world with the glory that is her
on september the 9th, she's into the punk rock scene with a twist
of some other fxcked up beats and loves the girly girl stuff, yet at the same time, is always willing to get down
and dirrty. she migrates to labuan every weekend or so and is a notorious relationship hopper (but working on
changing that - she has the best intentions at heart) and
she's always up for a good night out, especially when we were going through that drunken'ho phase together.
that's another thing, we've been through so much shit together and cliche as it sounds, life wouldn't be as fun
or interesting if she weren't in it. even though she's a party wild child, hair a-flickin' and boots a-kickin', she
does have her sensitive side and can be extremely wicked too. anyway, there's no actual way to describe cyn and
it's a crime to even try and attempt to, so it'd be best to get to know her yourself or else you'd be missing out
on so much
