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Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Sigh* im so confused.....i dont know what to do. i think i like this dude..but i really dont know...its messing with my head...nd i hate it. School wasnt so bad today there wasnt much drama and bitching. I was so tired at school today if i could i would have slept in every lesson i had..but i cldnt cuz like I had mr.troy 4 physics..so yeah..i dont really wana get into trouble with him. I stay'd up like untill 3 in the morning chatting to max and chris grace last nite or should i say this morning..i kept on hinting that i wanted to go to sleep nd stuff but nahl...they didnt get it..hahah oh boys so oblivious. speaking of obliviious i think i shld win a medal for the most oblivious person. a guy was telling me how much he miss's me nd wish i was there with him nd hes so depressed with out me cuz he moved nd stuff and there i am there i am thinking he was playing around goin awww yeah i miss u too nd stuff...until i knew that he meant it then i was like...oh shit im so dumb...hahaha when i think about it i laugh at my self hahaha.. oh it was kinda emberissing haha. yeah nd chris is coming to visit during the summer i cant wait..hehehe...hes so cool..haha. things between mish nd grey isnt that like obvious..like they still talk but inside they hate each other..its kinda dumb if u ask me..but still they are guys..hahaha. the oliver production is on next week im so pump'd up..i cant wait for it finally we are gona perform. and ohh!!! i hate my real bad he piss'd me off so much i just feel like..ehhhh.....the nerve of him...gawd. see thats why i like my step dad..arge..piss me off..gawd. oh just now at school adam show'd us like a lump at the back of hes neck cuz of diving it was so disgusting..i saw it and just left didnt want to hear how he got it i just left cuz it was so gross..hahaha. anyway im gona go.xoxo_ciao_
L o V i N g Y o U
7:00 AM
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Sigh today isnt as bad as i thought..school went pretty good..for once..hahaha oh dude after school was funny..we were laughing so damn much..dee spat er drink and it was all over mags shoe...hahahaha that was hell funny i cldnt stop laughing...hahahaha. nd ermz...hahaha the twins gave me this thing to hang up at my door nd it makes noise when u squeez it..hahaha nick nd dee got so pissed off..cuz i kept on squeezing it..hahahaha..that was hell funny...nd its so weird some one took our pic 4rm our locker nd stuff'd it at the school bored and now we cant get it out..so me and dee ish just like oh who ever did it..cuz we gona ask mrs.C to open the glass thingy so we can take our pic..hehehe ne way gots ta go.
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Ciao_
L o V i N g Y o U
4:52 AM
Monday, March 27, 2006
Omg...im so sick of everyone telling me who they hate..its pissing me owf..and its mostly the guys..and im just like ok what do you want me to do..i think thats why im getting headache's all the time its cuz of them..its driving me nuts..hahaha..but im kinda glad i told mish abt whats happening with him and grey..grey hates mish..and mish didnt noe abt it..in not gona typr down everything cuz its alot of bitchy stuff...and u never know who reads this...so im not gona say ne thing..but im glad i told mish some stuff..i just hope they dont start fighting cuz i really REALLY dont wana get involved..esp with this..sigh..i just hope nothing serious happen. other than that school is really messed up now everyones leaving..and stuff..and i've been having headaches since last friday constantly..and its really freaky..i duno..maybe its just me..or sumfinks..i duno..sigh..neways gona go
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ciao_
L o V i N g Y o U
5:38 AM
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Gah. Im so blah..bored..happy..sad..emo..i duno..haha..yeah im emo today..i duno..a friend leaving again it just sucks ass…you know you go through the same thing over and over again you cry hug say goodbye cry..and be all emo for a day or 2…than you get over it and hope none of ur friends leave again cuz it hurts so much..if it hurts so much than why do we make friends i mean we all know they are gona leave us and it hurts right..so why do we wana hurt ourselves..oh i duno..its so confusing...its life" i guess..hahaha..u know what..life is selfish..cuz it gives u everything u want right...and if like it so much and feel so comfy around it thats when it gets taken away 4rm u..but the things that hurts you..will never leave untill that gets better kinda thing..and it just sucks ass!! today was so fun..i went to the mall with max mags and gary..since its the last time i'll be spending time with max..we watch'd v for vendetta or sumtin..its really confusing..i didnt get the movie at all...well maybe its cuz i kept on arguing with max..haha..but thats not the point..haha..yeah..after that we went to the chill and just chill there 4 awile...and guess what OMG we went to play wax skating..well we were suppose to play pool but it was max's decision so we played wax skating..OMG..me and mags were wearing thongs..so we had to RENT SOCKS 4rm the wax skating place..omg it was so gross..max and gary just laughed at us..oh..dude it was so damn nasty that will be my firts and last time wearing socks 4rm that place..ehh..and the shoe thingy stank..aswell...it was just so nasty..seriously..the only reason i did it was cuz max was leaving and stuff..and u know..oh..he just had a good time laughing at me..abt that..him and gary was enjoying laughing at me and mags..ehhh..its so gross...im never doing that again..i still cant believe i did that..seriously..u shld have seen my face..hahaha...ohh..good times thou..im gona miss him sooooooooooooooo daymn fucking much...he's like my brother..but of course wen im at gadong there must be drama...gary left the movies cuz i think cuz he got abit jealous at me and max fooling around..so he left the movie..and after the movie i called him to join us and he didnt want to..cuz he didnt feel like it..and max is there so i can have fun with him..i dont need gary..so being me i got pissed of and said if he didnt wana join dont and i hung up..hahaha but in the end he joined us..hehehe..he was like what happend to ur phone we got cut off..i was like err..i hung up..but i didnt tell him that..i just smiled and said i duno must be dst or something..hahahah..ohh..the things i have to go through...hahaha..but yeah..all in all it was fun..im gona miss max so much..gah why does he have to leave...and dex..hahaha. My life has been so messy and still is..i just hope i can get back on my feet and you know be "normal" what ever that is..but my proud of myself i havent ninjad, got drunk or smoke in i think 3 weeks now..so im proud of ma self..hehehehe..ohhh and liam is coming on friday..that'd be cool...hahaha..i just hope he doesnt find out abt all the stuff i've been doing..or im dead!! hokies im gona go eat ice-cream with alot of fudge sit in front of the tv and sulk be all emo like..hahahaha...cioaxoxo_cyn_
L o V i N g Y o U
3:54 AM
Monday, March 13, 2006
Me listening to what's good for me by Lucy Woodward its a cool song>_<>
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Cyn_
L o V i N g Y o U
1:49 AM
Friday, March 10, 2006
Im so bored..for once i wish i wasnt homealone..im always homealone dad is working at KB mum is working in a hotle and billy is always at my cos's house playing games..and there's me homealone doing nothing well not doin nothing im going to gadong laters i cld go now just that my driver is at seria and wont be here till 4:30 ish so yeah...my msn doesnt work 4 some really strange reason its pissing me owf!! i cant wait till the holz only one more week of school:D oh yeah but then we get our reports which sucks ass!! my parents was like if you dont get a good report ur not gona go out and if its really bad we will move u to jis and im just like what JIS the worst school ever!![no affence to the ppl i know there] but still jis its sooo..not me.. yeah so like im hopeing i get good marks thats if mr.bates decides to change his mind and give everyone good grades*sigh. on the brighter note i might be going to KL during the holz 4 some shopping i cant wait, shopping is like the best thing in the whole wide world hahaha;p well besides soccer,music and art that is haha. *sigh i wish my driver was here so i can go im like so bored i wanted to invite some of my mates over but i woke up l8 haha so i cldnt be bothered to txt em..hehe and way im gona go and watch tv or something..haha byeeeee.
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Cyn_
L o V i N g Y o U
11:31 PM
Im listening to Blink 182-stay together for the kids and Jimmy eat world-work dont know why just feel like it. I cant say that my day was bad cuz it wasnt (i just feel like going away thats all) this morning during history mr.Canterford[our principle] gave us crisps in class and we were doing our work and eating at the same time and he's gona do that everytime we have history now which is like so damn wicked!!, we never use to have him we use to have mr.frank till he left without telling anyone about it and he left everything in his house and stuff so yeah our principle is taking over till we get a new history teacher. Oh and in english everyone is pissed off at our english teacher he gave everyone bad marks and comments which is really annoying and the worst bit was that he said that we are the worst class he ever had and stuff like that if he really hates our class why cant he just move to another english class or something..why stay when you hate everyone in that room..and like he called parents in and stuff and like no one is speaking in class only if he ask's a question other than that NO ONE speaks at all!! I just dont know school's becoming so intense now a days..it sucks i wish i could go back to like grade 5 or 6 or something when it was as all simple and calm and we get less work. its so weird not having the primary students at school it seem so quite its cuz of the hand-foot-mouth diseases and our music teacher said that secondary might close next week because of the dieseases because a 13 yr old kid died yesterday its kinda scary and like everyone's freaking out and if u go into the primary toilets they all smell of detol it kinda makes u sick after awhile. so cuz of the dieseases Oliver got postponed till april which sucks cuz i really wanted to perform it today and 2moro i think everyone did. and i cant believe max and dex is leaving in like 2 weeks its so sad..life without max and dex and someone 4rm our yr mite move to st.andrews. everyone is leaving getting out of brunei leaving all the shit behind, i'd consider them lucky that they are laving brunie but then again they are leaving friends which i know will suck ass cuz i've been moving schools since i was in yr 4 so yeah i know how they feel. okays other than school and people leaving..there's so many things i wana say but i cant cuz i know that ppl will read this and give really bad comments abt it or something i cant talk to anyone abt it and it sucks cuz they wont understand all i can do is keep it in till one day when i finally snap and say it all but what good is that cuz they will never understand all im doing now to get my feeling out is doing art not like drawing ones its the ones that u cant tell what it is till u really look at it. im gona go and eat and sulk infornt of the tv watching narnia the best movie ever!!
xoxo
cyn_
L o V i N g Y o U
3:00 AM
(About Me)
okay, this is dee love. otherwise known as hugwhore number one, part of the dynamic duo that is cynthia and i.<
so, you should all at least know of this girl if you're reading this blog, but that doesn't mean you know
what she's like or who she truly is, so here i am, serving you the summary on a silver platter.
she's a butt kicking, ice cream licking, -- wait, let's just stop these futile attempts at summing up wondergirl.
currently she is 16, living in brunei and going through the life of an isbian (with yours truly - isb, represent,
baby), highs + lows and all.
coming from the lands of malaysia, india, portugal and china and blessing this world with the glory that is her
on september the 9th, she's into the punk rock scene with a twist
of some other fxcked up beats and loves the girly girl stuff, yet at the same time, is always willing to get down
and dirrty. she migrates to labuan every weekend or so and is a notorious relationship hopper (but working on
changing that - she has the best intentions at heart) and
she's always up for a good night out, especially when we were going through that drunken'ho phase together.
that's another thing, we've been through so much shit together and cliche as it sounds, life wouldn't be as fun
or interesting if she weren't in it. even though she's a party wild child, hair a-flickin' and boots a-kickin', she
does have her sensitive side and can be extremely wicked too. anyway, there's no actual way to describe cyn and
it's a crime to even try and attempt to, so it'd be best to get to know her yourself or else you'd be missing out
on so much
